I'm having trouble at the moment. At the moment I have 2 girls in my heart and on my mind. One who I love, and one who loves me. I can't let go of the one that I love, because I do not understand why I love her. I can't let go of the one that loves me, because I do not wish to hurt her.
A friend once told me that sometimes we have to hurt people, and sometimes it can end up being a good thing, because it helps them grow. I'm not sure that would be the case in this instance, however. I told her I loved her, and I spent a long weekend with her, and when I left her, and got back to Sydney, I did not feel the same way.
I'm still in love with the girl I met in June. She does not love me, and has made it perfectly clear that should does not want there to be an "us" (meaning a romantic relationship). She says she wants to have a platonic friendship with me, but she has not been willing to put the effort into that. I think she doesn't have the courage to say "I don't think we should see eachother". Neither do I, but I know that is what must happen if things remain the way they are, for my mental health at least.

These are the things that are most on my mind at the moment.